Reasons

As a person who is a very empathetic person, it is difficult for me to reason with myself and other people because I feel like I do not understand or they do not understand the feelings I am going through or what they are going through. I do not like to be able to understand because I believe that I am not able to help that person.

When a person says that depression is a phase, I get upset. When a person says that a depressed person should stop being sad, I get upset. Any mental condition is difficult to comprehend and difficult to go through. Not everything is black and white and not everything has a one step solution. We cannot tell a person to stop because words are not actions. They will never be actions.

The reason why I decided to say this thought is because it has been running in my mind for a long time, and I never had the courage to say things. I am afraid to show emotions. I do not like to be vulnerable. I do not like to appear weak, but as humans, I say that we are a bit hard on ourselves because we want to look strong. We want to look strong so that the other person can lean on us. I am not always a wall.

I will never understand what it means to go through depression or any mental condition, but I will not say simple solutions that many ignorant people assume.

If life were really that easy, what happens to the adventure? What happens to growing?

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Update on Short Story

I have vignettes written, but I do not think I will want to post them onto the Internet because of plagiarism and the thought of using my story in later references for myself. It is out for the sake of you and I, so I think I am just going to share memories, new findings, and thoughts on pop culture here.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu