Saturday, August 31, 2013

Reasons

As a person who is a very empathetic person, it is difficult for me to reason with myself and other people because I feel like I do not understand or they do not understand the feelings I am going through or what they are going through. I do not like to be able to understand because I believe that I am not able to help that person.

When a person says that depression is a phase, I get upset. When a person says that a depressed person should stop being sad, I get upset. Any mental condition is difficult to comprehend and difficult to go through. Not everything is black and white and not everything has a one step solution. We cannot tell a person to stop because words are not actions. They will never be actions.

The reason why I decided to say this thought is because it has been running in my mind for a long time, and I never had the courage to say things. I am afraid to show emotions. I do not like to be vulnerable. I do not like to appear weak, but as humans, I say that we are a bit hard on ourselves because we want to look strong. We want to look strong so that the other person can lean on us. I am not always a wall.

I will never understand what it means to go through depression or any mental condition, but I will not say simple solutions that many ignorant people assume.

If life were really that easy, what happens to the adventure? What happens to growing?

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Monday, August 26, 2013

Update on Short Story

I have vignettes written, but I do not think I will want to post them onto the Internet because of plagiarism and the thought of using my story in later references for myself. It is out for the sake of you and I, so I think I am just going to share memories, new findings, and thoughts on pop culture here.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Monday, July 1, 2013

Work in Progress

My last post is a character study, and I just written a couple of little instances of her life. Even though there is no plot line to the new "short story" I am creating, it is just going to be about life.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Speaking of Change: Here and There

As a child growing up in Sharpstown, I loved it, but the thing that I will change will be the weird uniforms that I had to wear. Green shirt and khaki pants, not the most fashionable nor flattering combination on anyone, unless you are Marilyn Monroe, who can pretty much look good in anything. People say it is a bad part in town. Yes, my house did get robbed, but they did not take anything valuable. The burglars only took simple jewelry, which might sound scary, but I have to admit the walls on that house were not the sturdious. Trust me, if I were to take you and visit the house right now, if the people owning it have not renovated the place (which I doubt), you will see a minty area on the wall in the kitchen where there used to be a hole. That hole was the place where the burglars got in. It sounds way more serious than it needs to be.

As a teenager living in Missouri City, not the less fortunate areas, not Sienna Plantation, not Riverstone, but the surburbs that are considered average. I call it privilege. However, even though there are not that many burglaries, there is a different type of crime. If you are old enough, people commit white collar, especially in high class areas. I am far out from high class, talking about eating Taco Bell at around noon even though I woke up at 9. If you do not understand what it is, do not worry. Please do not look up if you are not old enough because the worst thing I can do is to forcibly let a child loose its innocence.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Oblivion

When I was younger, as in my grade school years, I was so excited to do  grow older and support myself. I wanted to get a job, get money, learn to drive, learn to know how to do my taxes, take up responsibilities, and pick up groceries. I wanted a well paying job, such as being a doctor or lawyer, because that was what my family wanted, which in turn, made it what I want. I wanted to be sucessful, to be well-known, to be proud of, and as I grew into my awkward preteen years, my family, as I thought and still think, was proud of me.

Now at the age of 15, pretty young, I know, but I am not proud of myself. I am unproductive and a number to the world, just a mear statistic. I make up one of the many who are a statistic. You do too. I am not special to the world. I am just another one of the 7 billion. Despite the fact that I try to work my hardest, no matter how much I try, I will only notice the so-called change because I focus on myself, no one else. That sounds selfish, but it is so true. Walking around in town, I do not know people's stories, nor do I want to. They are merely a statistic.

I guess you can say that I also fear oblivion. I fear not being important. I fear that no one will remember what I have done, what I wanted to do, or what I could not accomplish.

The only thing that Earth will remember is that I am a person. However, once humanity dies out, no one will remember the Civil War, the Holocaust, the struggles, the works of literature, because in the end, they are just specks of dirt, a second in time compared to what goes on in the universe.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Speaking of Change: Where the Wild Things are

Growing older does not always mean growing wiser, growing maturer, growing kinder. It just means what it says, growing older. Wisdom does not come through age. People believe so because the older we get, the more experience we have with life. Experience does not come through time; it comes through the emotional expense we take in order to say something or do something. Maturity, I do not know how that works. It does not come through age though. I know that for sure. Kindness comes from character. It is the effect of the way we have been treated, the way we have been raised, the way we have lived, never the way our age has changed. Never.

Saturday, June 8, 2013

Speaking of Change: Growing

Everyone in one shape or form grows. To you, it might be mentally, physically, emotionally, etc. I wanted to show you how I've grown up over the years and how my personality has been shapen and carved and worked to the point where I am today. I know that I will continue to evolve and alter, but for now, this is what I got.

Physically:
Even though I have not grown much over the years, my body shape definitely has. In the sixth grade, I had really short legs and a longer torso with broad shoulders, so pretty much, I was an ideal swimmer. I was not into swimming; I loved to dance, but my body type did not really fit that as well. By the seventh grade, I noticed that I have gotten slimmer, which made my whole body look a lot lean and long. I continued to eat the same way I always been eating, but my body kept evolving. Naturally, my legs and torso balanced out well. By the eighth grade, I think I reached my slimmest here. My legs grew so much during this year, and they were so long and my torso was so short compared to them. It was kind of ridiculous. Also, I was pretty slim. In the ninth grade, my body type stayed the same. Now, my body is more filled out. I do not have prominent curves or a prominent slim figure, I have an athletic build, even though I am not athletic. My legs are proportionally longer than my torso.

Mentally:
I used to be very intellectually and liked to based things off of facts. Nowadays, I do not do that whatsoever. I have a more feeling perspective to life and way more percieving than judging. I used to want to be in the intellectual field of life because that is what made me happy. However, I do not want to do that anymore. I want to be something more than that.

Emotionally:
It comes with age I guess. Things used to get to me, yet still some things do get to me, but I try my best to not let the smaller things.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Saturday, June 1, 2013

Speaking of Change: Moving

*Inspiration: Traveling and moving was a big part of my childhood, and even today. Even though at times I disliked it, the good times traveling and moving overpowered the bad. Here are some of the places I moved around from and to.

Sharpstown, Houston, Texas:
Although everyone believes that Sharpstown is the bad part of Texas, it is actually my one of my favorite place to this day. However, I am biased because I lived here for most of my childhood and grew to love it, but there is something so raw, so pure about a rundown town. I love everything here, the people, the graffiti, the food, everything.

Missouri City, Texas:
I do not like this town even though people consider it to be desirable to live in. I do not like the people because most of them are snobs (although I have meant a couple of nice people), the food (but I do like the Aura and Tornado Burger), nor the buildings. It is so conformed and restricted, that it is getting ridiculous. I mean in what other city can you drive by 9 churches. Sorry, but Missouri City, Texas, is not my cup of tea.

Austin, Texas:
The music, the vibe, Lake Travis, everything is great. I would not live here though because of all the hills, which make me feel a bit nauseated.

Lake Conroe, Texas:
This is the place where I can get used to it. The people are so nice, and the vibe is very chilled out and relazxed. I love how they determine the closing and opening time of restaurants and the marinas (sun rise is opening, sunset is closing), absolutely amazing.

Destin, Florida:
Again, one of my favorite places in the world. I love northwest Florida because it is beautiful and everything is great. Everything is pure there and the water is the most beautiful thing ever.

Paris, France:
It was magical when I went there, it was winter. Even though I got sick and was only four, I remember how pretty the city was, the difference of it when I arrived from America. Everything was perfect. I loved it, and the memory of the doctror visiting me still burns in my brain.

Denver, Colorado:
My experience here was not the greatest. Prefer not to talk about it. The only decent memory is that I was eating gummy moose while painting snow.

Vietnam:
I love tropical weather, but I had food poisoning. I have a love-hate relationship with this place.

Taipei:
It was hot, it was crowded, and the hustle and bustle of the city is not for me.

Toronto, Canada:
Not the ideal place for me, probably because I had my lost summer there and do not remember half of the memories that were shown through photographs.

Chicago, Illinois:
The cleaner and more foody New York. I love everything about this place, and even though I would not stay here for long, it is comforting to know that I actually like an inland area.

Orange County, California
My trip here for the first time was enjoyable, but I did not like the second time around, mostly because I did not go wherever I wanted to go the second time. Despite the fact that I was younger the first visit, I felt as though I had more freedom and went everywhere.

New York, New York
Not my favorite place either. It was ok and I had an experience.

These are places that left marks on my body and my heart. I went to other places, but these stook out the most.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

New Changes

Instead of doing tags, I decided to allow myself to get creative and write whatever I want on this blog. So, this blog will not be as personal as my other one, but I think it will be more fun to do, since I am not forcing myself to do anything. I can do whatever I want and that makes me happy.

Yes, I will write little short stories on here because that is what I love to do. I love to write. I will not have a schedule, but when I write something I like or have an idea I like, I will put it on here.

With love,
Violet Sar Bleu

Saturday, May 11, 2013

What I do not like about YouTube

Despite the fact that YouTube is one of my favorite types of source of entertainment, there is a lot of things wrong with it. In the end, those things do not matter, but whenever I give you a video to watch from the site, I feel obligated to tell you what to expect when you go through the great big hole of vloggers. So, before you watch any video from YouTube that I suggest, I want to give you some warnings.

1. The Format
The format of YouTube changes almost every 6 months, and it irritates a lot of people who make the videos on YouTube. It does not really affect the viewers, but it can get a bit confusing.

2. The fangirls are crazy.
Whenever I try to watch a video, sometimes, I run across crazy girls who are obsessed with certain vloggers. I am fine with fans, but I think it gets to a point where it gets weird.

3. Some of the videos are repeated.
Some examples include "Things I do not get about girls," "Things I do not get about guys," "How to survive high school," etc. It gets tiring watching the same thing over and over again, and I feel bad for the person who started the trend. Also, what happened to creativity. It is fine if a person just so happen to make a video with the same topic, but it gets to a point.

That is really it, I do not have to say anything anymore.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu


Saturday, May 4, 2013

Writer's Block

I have a serious case of writer's block, probably because I had to write three essays last week and had to make like a kaleidoscope type poster for someone, so my creativity has been worn down. I lost my mojo in the arts, and it has been showing when I try to write for this blog. I tried to write it last night, did not work. I tried to write it this morning, did not work. I am trying to write it right now, and this is the best I can do as of right now. I do not want to bore you, so I decided to be straight up honest and say that I do not have an idea as of write now. Hopefully, I will get through this, and be ready for next week. My apologies to you.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Friday, April 26, 2013

Things I Hate

Even though life is a beautiful thing, in order to see the beauty, we have to see the ugly in order to know what the beauty looks like, so here are the ugliness of the world in my opinion.

1. I hate it when a person tells me plans on short notice and expects me to obliged to them.
Even though I usually do not have plans, I do not like it when people tell me things on short notice. It gives me anxiety and nervous for some weird reason, and I need to prepare for it. I know that sounds dumb, but that is how I am. I like to comfortable, not stressed out all the time.

2. I hate it when a person criticizes any physical feature about me.
I am sorry that I have acne on my face, that I am not the curviest or thinnest girl, but I cannot help it. I have no control over my body, and therefore, I cannot do things the way I do.

3. I hate it when I hate a person just because that person reminds me of a previous person that I met and had a bad experience with.

4. I hate the fact that there is such things as mornings.

With Love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Friday, April 5, 2013

My Pet Peeves/ Annoying Things

I do not know about you, but I do not like a lot of things, and those many things make me annoyed. Yes, that bothersome feeling you have when you just want to bite a head off. :)

1. I hate it when people come into my room early in the morning, telling me what to do when I am half awake, and do not close the door.
My dad is guilty of this. He will wake me up at the crack of dawn (not really, but it is pretty early for the weekend), tells what I have to do for the day when I am not listening because I am struggling to keep my eyes open, and then the worst part, does not close the door. I do not know why that annoys me, that little creak between the closings of the door, but it does. So, parents, when you come into our room, please close the door when you leave. Just do that, and we will be fine.

2. I hate it when people slurp their soup.
The sound disgusts me, I do not know why, but it sounds as if they are trying to swallow their spit. So please, do not slurp your soup.

3. I hate it when people make that annoying smacking sound when they eat.
This is usually caused by when a person chews with their mouth open and use a lot of saliva. Again, the sound disgusts and annoys me.

4. I hate it when people cut me off when I am talking.
I am not a type of person who likes to talk in general. To me, it is useless. However, when I do say something, please let me finish before anyone else starts talking.

5. I hate it when people point out something about my appearance that I already know about.
I can be breaking out, a gray hair will be in my hair, or I just look terrible. However, that does not give anyone the right to point it out. I own a mirror, I can see my imperfections, stop making me feel more insecure than I already do.

6. I hate it when a person is walking and just decides to stop in front of you.
I do not think this happens a lot, except for in high schools and in malls. People will just stop to talk to their friends in the middle of the hallway, and I do not get why. It makes no sense, people are trying to go through. Ughh, and do not ask "Why are there people shoving me?" It is because you are standing in the middle of the freakin hallway. And usually, they have a wall of friends, I am so sorry high school and mall goers. It is ten times worse in the stairs. If someone stops in front of you in the stairs, the momentum of you going down the stairs has to immediately stop. This can result in either two situations: the domino affect or being "Flat Stanley" for a couple of minutes.

7. I hate it when people talk with their mouth filled with food.
Please, do not talk with your mouth filled with food. I do not want to see how amylase breaks down your food, nonetheless, hear the food being chewed while talking. I still do not know which one is more disgusting.

8. I hate people who cannot speak in proper English.
Last time I check, it is "you are" not "you is". Please correct it because it does not make you look like a "thug", "gangstar", it just sounds like you are uneducated or did not listen in elementary/primary school.

9. I hate it when people cancel plans at the last minute.
When people cancel plans at the last minute or decide not to go and call you later to tell you why they cannot go, it is called being stood up. Goodness gracious, my grasshopper, you cannot do that.

10. Lastly, I hate it when people do not understand why I am tired.
Pretty self explanatory.

Those are somethings that I have pet peeves over. What are some of your pet peeves? What annoys you the most? Leave them in the comments below.

With Love,

Violet Sar Bleu

Saturday, March 30, 2013

Words to Make Life More Optimistic

I want to make others people lives more joyful. Therefore, I want to share to you some words/phrases to replace with in order to make it sound not so bad. Do not worry, I am not trying to deceive you, just trying to keep that smile on your face.

1. Replace "Forever Alone" with "Forever Available"
Once we think about it, we are not forever alone, since we are always surrounded by people. I get the phrase, "I am lonely in a crowded room," but we have people around us. Alone and being lonely are two different things. Therefore, you are always available to talk to someone when you are alone.

2. Replace "Funeral" with "Memorial"
I think funerals are just for a way for people's emotions to get out of wack and blow out of proportion, since they are mourning over someone's death. A memorial is different because they celebrate the person's life and her or his legacy. Memorials are always better in my opinion.

3. Replace "Death" with "End of Journey"
Death sounds too harsh, especially when used in a sentence on its own. However, when people say end of journey, it kind of makes everything better, since the life is over, but not the people.

4. Replace "Problem" with "Inferior Complex"
When I hear problem, it sounds as though it will never be solved, but inferior complex sounds like something you can break down and make better.

5. Replace "Global Warming" with "Extreme Weather"
Global warming causes extreme weather. If we think that it will not become, it will not, at least in my mind.

6. Replace "Breakup" with "Good Riddance"
Even though breakups are tough, it is good that they happen because it allows people to be with the right person. It is good that the person is out of your life so that you can have someone else better.

7. Replace "Mistakes" with "Experience"
Imagine a world in which we will never make a mistake, we will never grow. We will never evolve and stay the same forever. However, mistakes give us experience, so thank your mistakes because they are blessings in disguise.

Friday, March 15, 2013

Favorite and Most Hated Vacations

Many of us have went on a vacation where we felt happy, and others, well, not so happy. Whenever I go on any vacation, it eithers ends up in turmoil or it ends up feeling like paradise. So, I wanted to share to you my favorite and most hated vacations.

Favorite Vacations

1. Chicago
I went with my mother, sister, and my mother's boyfriend, and we stayed at this lovely hotel, Hotel 71, which has the best macroni and cheese and is located at the south side of Chicago. I just wanted to say how much fun I had in Chicago, and was defintely the best place to go. Good food, good people, good pier, and everything was so carefree and not rushed.

2. Paris
I went to Paris with my grandmother, and to this date, it is one of my favorite vacations. We stayed at my cousins nice little cottage, and he had an array of glass ornaments, which were beautiful. I remembered going to this home with the best people and met a girl who liked my kitty leggings and popped the heads off of Barbies too. Yeah, and they also had the best milk. It was creamy, but I was sick for a while there. Nonetheless, Paris was beautiful.

3. Destin
I went to Destin with my sister, my two cousins, and my aunt and uncle through a car ride. We stayed in this lovely apartment which had a room for the kids with bunkbeds. I remembered going to the beach everyday and learned how to bodysurf there. The hardest decision to make was how to cook the fish or should we go bodysurfing or fishing.

Most Hated Vacations

1. Toronto
I love Canadians, pountin, and Sauble Beach, but I disliked my experiences. Why? It was hard for me since I was at the age of coming of age, and I was pretty much the adults nonpaid babysitter. Let me tell you, I had to sleep in the living room, with no privacy and this lady kept waking me up at 7:00 a.m., which got on my nerves because I was on vacation. Probably one of my only good memories was Sauble Beach.

2. L.A.
Before you start bashing me, hear me out. I love Orange County, and everything about that place, but I do not like L.A. There are too many people in a rush and the traffic is horrible. Trust me, I was mistaken to be old enough to sit at a bar, and I am in high school. Yeah, L.A., not the city for me.

3. Colorado
Colorado is the opposite of what I believe of paradise. It is cold and landlocked, pretty much a nightmare for me, and also, on the mountains, this dude kept yelling at me. Crazy, I know. So yeah, the only good memory for me was that I got to color snow and the dude fell. Yeah, I got the last laugh.

So these are my favorite and most hated vacations. No, I do not hate anyone in these particular cities, but I just hated my experiences. I hated the way I spent these cities, and someday, I will do them justice.

What are the worst places you have been to? Why? Leave them in the comments below

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Favorite And Most Hated Movies

Have you ever notice that some movies are either very well done and others are just terrible? I hope I am not the only person who believes because if I am, I should just go on to another planet :). Do you want to come with? I like company, and you seem like great company. But, here are my favorite and most hated movies. And to be socially correct, please do not take any offense to this because I am very outspoken.

Favorite Movies

1. Full Metal Jacket
In my opinion, the Vietnam War is probably the most interesting time period other than World War II and the 90s and what better way to express the times of the war and the 70s through this movie. It is so well done and well directed and well acted that I cannot take my eyes off. Definitely a winner for sure.
Recommendation of method of watching: Grab your favorite snack and watch in either your bedroom, living room, anywhere you are most comfortable.

2. The Reader
Ralph Fiennes and Kate Winslet are geniuses in this film. Again, the movie is set during wartime, particularly World War II and the Holocaust. It expresses the past and the later past if that makes any type of sense.
Recommendation of method of watching: Be comfortable and try not to drink anything or you might get a spit take.

3. The Yellow Handkerchief
Eddie Redmayne, Maria Bello, William Hurt, and Kristen Stewart make a great onscreen group. Although I do not like to watch anything Twilight, Kristen Stewart was not terrible nor amazing to watch, but I could not picture anyone portraying her character better. William Hurt did an amazing job, and Maria Bello was great. Eddie Redmayne's character was odd, but he portrayed it well. I love the movie because of its simplicity.
Recommendation of method of watching: During a long car ride when everyone else is asleep

Most Hated Movies

1. Madagascar 3 in 3-D
Most of the time in this movie, my eyes were hurting and headaches were coming because of the 3-D movie. For one, I hate 3-D movies. And second, this movie had such a terrible plot line that was distracted by the unneeded "humor" of the film, which consisted of a polka dotted zebra, terrible dance and song numbers, and animated animals. I swear, I hated the film, and only two drunken guys ended up laughing. I wanted to leave.

2. Spy Kids 4 in 4-D
Again, it was terribly done. The directing, the angles, I sound too judgmental about it, but I ended up sleeping the entire time.



Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Favorite Foods and Hated Foods

The theme of this post is food. Here, I will list 5 of my favorite food and why and 5 of my most hated foods and why.

Favorite Foods:

1. Samoas a.k.a. Caramel Delights Cookies by Girls Scouts
These cookies are hands down my favorite cookies of all time. They are chewy, sweet, nutty, but not overdone in anyway. I kid you not I finished a box of these of a course of 4 days.
Recommendation of method of eating: Straight out of the box with a glass of chocolate milk

2. Chocolate Mint Ice Cream
I love anything that is refreshing and this ice cream does it for me. I was always a fanatic of mint and chocolate together, and in ice cream form, irresistible.
Recommendation of method of eating: On a hot day, out of a waffle ice cream cone, not cup.

3. Hotel 71 Mac and Cheese
I always loved Mac and Cheese, but this dish gets me in the gut. I love this, and if you ever in the south part of Chicago, you have to get it. Not only is the Mac and Cheese so delicious, but they top it off with Serrano ham. Tell me, how is this legal?
Recommendation of method of eating: In the hotel restaurant, bring a friend, have them order fish and chips, and share amongst yourselves.

4. Black Coffee
In my mind, there is nothing better than the scent of coffee. I drink it so often that I think I grew a tolerance over the caffeine. It does not give me that buzz or anything, but tastes amazing. It is almost like drugs to me. I do not know how it is legal. I can buy it, make it, and drink it.
Recommendation of method of drinking: Dark Roast, no cream, no sugar

5. Arnold Palmer
No, not the golfer, the half ice tea and half lemonade. Just buy brewed tea (no sugar), make your own lemonade (however tart and sweet you want), and put equal parts of each, and enjoy. :) It combines two of my favorite things, so yum.
Recommendation of method of drinking: Any hot day :)

Hated Foods:

1. Mushrooms
They look like aliens and taste like meaty jello to me and is chewy. No offense to any fungi lovers. I am not here to judge :).

2. Banh Mi
I am talking Vietnamese sandwiches. I do not know why but I hate these things. It is just a French baguette with fresh veggies and good meat, but I just do not like it.

3. Pop/Soda
It is bitter and feels tough on my tongue and feels like it is eroding away.

4. Apple Pie
I actually do not have a good excuse for this one. I just do not like it.

5. Cow's Milk
Again, no good excuse, just hate it.


Saturday, March 9, 2013

Introducing Me

Hi everyone, how are you? So, this week is introducing yourself and saying five random facts. However, I am not going to use my real name in order to keep something to myself on the internet, but I will be completely honest on this blog about the qualities about myself, since not many people do that anymore. Without further a do, I will introduce myself.

Hi everyone, I write under my pseudonym, Violet Sar Bleu, and I am 15 years old and in high school and in year 10. I am from Texas, and I like to be in the ocean, dance, play the piano, and state my opinion. Hopefully, we can all have fun on this blog and say whatever we want, without offending or hurting one another, because I do not want to do anything to hurt you.

Random Facts:

1. I cannot ride a bike. I do not know why this is such a problem with me, but it is, and I am embaressed by it because I can never go on bike rides because of this. I can skateboard and rollerblade and rollerskate, but I cannot ride a bike.

2. I am a very socially awkward person. Social interactions are a nightmare to me, and sometimes, I just do not want to be in a conversation with someone because I am just lazy. It's pretty bad, but I am working on it.

3. I am afraid of being shocked my static electrictity. If you do not know what I mean, it is when people rub against either the floor with socks on or something and shock you. I do not know why I am so scared of something so harmless.

4. I am a total bookworm. I love books, and I sound like a total nerd about it, but I can talk about books for ages, and that is what I love to do.

5. I am a total night owl. At 3 or even 4 a.m. and you are sleeping inside your little bed, I am wide awake doing nothing. And then, sometimes, I do not even feel tired.

So yes, this blog can be pointless, meaningful, however we see it as, but I will like for you to say your 5 random facts about yourself in the comments below.

This blog will have a different theme every week, and I will try to post every week about that theme. If you have any ideas, just send them to my colleague's email lillianjuly24@aol.com, and I might do them.

With love,

Violet Sar Bleu

P.S. Please check out my other blog, Introducing Me, that blog is updated once every so often and it usually just has random posts about anything, so please check it out :).